Insomnia

Every now and then- for what reason I do not know- I fall into a bout of insomnia. Now, everyone knows what a pain in the ass it is when you have trouble falling asleep.... but not many people fully comprehend the sheer torture of being an insomniac.
Nothing you do makes you able to sleep (even though you are almost dropping from exhaustion). And you spend your time either watching hours of senseless television, pacing the floor like a ward in an assylum, or sitting posting blogs at 5:30 in the morning.
The absolute worst part is when you look out the window and see the sun beginning to come up.... now that REALLY drives you closer to insanity; because once the sky begins to turn white, you know that there is no going to sleep now (Sylvia Plath had an actual word for this time of morning, but I can't seem to recall it at the moment ((there's another charming aspect of insomnia.... your mind goes to shit)) ).
All I can say is... no wonder Judy had a taste for Seconal and Marilyn for Nembutal.... at this moment in time even I would consider popping a few. Anything to get to sleep.
And insomnia is especially fun when you are an actor because have you ever tried singing after going 48 hours without sleep?.... I defy you to try.